'I'm A Much Better Cook': For Dads, Being Forced To Stay At Home Is Eye-Opening

Nov 11, 2020
Originally published on November 18, 2020 11:53 am

Zachary Austrew is still trying to come to terms with what it means to be the sole breadwinner in his household.

"We're not that family where I go to work, and she stays home and cleans the house, and I expect dinner when I return," he says. "That's not how we operate."

And yet, with two young children stuck at home and Austrew's project management job deemed essential, they more or less are — for now. This summer, his wife Ashley quit her full-time job in marketing and is now homeschooling the kids.

"She was a homemaker almost immediately, and I was outside of the house," he says. "I definitely felt some guilt."

Many men are facing this new reality, as women have quit the workforce in droves recently. The number of women on U.S. payrolls overtook men for a brief period of three months through February this year. No longer.

And as schools have remained closed or partially closed, and child care options have dwindled, life for countless families has been upended. While women still shoulder the bulk of child care and household duties in America, many men are being forced to confront new realities at home.

Unlike Austrew, many others have found themselves out of a job, and single dads are finding ways to manage on their own. Whatever the situation, one thing is clear: The pandemic is taking fathers on all sorts of journeys they may never have chosen otherwise.

You can get a glimpse of Will Station's journey in a video he shared online this fall. Station knew his children were bummed about virtual learning. They didn't want to put on nice clothes or do their hair for the annual first-day-of-school picture. They just wanted to get it over with and go back to the living room.

To shake things up, he turned on some music, sent the kids out the front door with their backpacks, and had them turn around and ring the doorbell. He then greeted them back with a big welcome and what he called a silly dance. Instantly, everyone's mood brightened. It set a new tone for the school year, one that has turned out to be as different for dad as it is for the kids.

Station, a vice president at Boeing, normally travels several times a month for work, logging as many as 200,000 miles a year. His wife April, who works full-time for Microsoft, was the parent who looked after most of their children's school needs. Station says he often did not know the names of his kids' teachers.

"My wife would tell me obviously, and if I had time, maybe I'd meet them, you know, once or twice a year," he says. Now, with online schooling, he not only sees the teachers regularly (online) but watches how they interact with his children.

Station with his children, Taylor (left) and Jaden.
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"I got to see my kids and see their world in a way that I've never experienced before," he says. "It's very special."

Station hasn't traveled for work since February, and while he's still logging a lot of hours from home, he is overseeing more of the schoolwork than ever and spending more time with the children. He gets emotional thinking about how much he's missed and how much he's getting to experience now.

"Even with all the chaos, this has been a bonus year for me," Station says.

Eight months into the pandemic, the shift in how fathers view their responsibilities at home is worth watching, says economist Misty Heggeness of the U.S. Census Bureau.

Gender inequality in the workforce is driven in part by similar forces in the domestic sphere. Far more mothers than fathers interrupt or scale back their careers to care for young children and manage the household. Eroding or eliminating the imbalance on the home front will likely lead to greater equality in the labor market, Heggeness says.

Anecdotally, you hear many stories of dads stepping up in the pandemic. Census data also suggest a larger number of men are spending more time at home. Heggeness examined data from a subset of fathers: those who live with school-age children. She found 50% more of them were not actively working this fall compared with a year ago. This includes fathers who are not working and not looking for work, and fathers who might have taken sick leave or administrative leave or were on vacation.

It also includes unemployed fathers like Nathan Bieck. Early this year, Bieck was putting in long days preparing for the April grand opening of the new Loews Hotel in downtown Kansas City: 800 rooms, 60,000 square feet of meeting and event space.

"We had giant media events planned. People flying in from all over to cut ribbons," says Bieck, who worked in business travel sales. Those plans were scrapped when the nation went into lockdown. By early May, Bieck was furloughed.

Meanwhile his wife Ashley was going bonkers at her job in health care, working 16-hour days dealing with changing policies surrounding COVID-19 payments and reimbursements.

"It's a complete role reversal, from the laundry to the food," Nathan Bieck says of their home life. "I'm a much better cook than I was six months ago."

With their 9-year-old daughter Maddie in remote school, he has also assumed another role.

"I am Teacher Dad," he says. "I get up every morning, and I wake her up, get her breakfast ready. We get her online."

Under his tutelage, Maddie's reading and math scores have gone way up, an achievement he proudly shares. He may not be bringing in a bunch of money for the family, he says, but "this one, I can say hey, maybe this is working."

While Maddie is in class, Bieck has been applying for jobs. At 45, he says the process can feel humiliating. He prays for the day that his boss calls him to say the hotel, which opened in June under strict COVID-19 restrictions, is ready to bring him back. But who knows when that might be? It's just a really tough market, he says.

Meanwhile, Austrew has not had to worry about job security this year. He's been with his company for 14 years, and even in the pandemic, new opportunities have come up — positions he might have sprung for in normal times. Instead, he's choosing to play it safe, not wanting to rock the boat and add more strain on his family.

"The stability of my career is the most important thing that we have financially right now," he says. "I want to do my day-to-day activities as quickly and efficiently as possible, so I can get home and deal with all the other ... stresses that we're not used to having."

He feels he owes that to his family, and especially to his wife, whose career is on hold for the foreseeable future.

"One day I hope to make it up to her," he says. "Hopefully after everything returns back to some sense of normalcy, she can return to what she really wants to do. And I'll definitely support her any way I can."

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For families with kids, pandemic life is still a hot mess. Many moms are just drowning, and dads' lives have also been upended. NPR's Andrea Hsu talked with a few dads who are finding themselves in unfamiliar territory.

ANDREA HSU, BYLINE: Will Station knew his kids were bummed about remote school this fall, so he decided to shake things up.


HSU: He made his children go outside with their backpacks and come back in through their own front door.

WILL STATION: Jaden, I want to see you (ph) at first day of school.

HSU: But that's not all. Each kid had to complete some fancy footwork with their dad before he'd let them pass. Their new ritual made the local news - maybe because of those dance moves, but also because, well, here's this dad making the most of virtual school.


STATION: Another student.

HSU: Will Station never could have imagined he'd be doing this. Before the pandemic, his wife was mostly the one looking after the kids' education.

STATION: I'm usually gone. You know, a couple of times a month, I'm on some type of travel.

HSU: Station is a vice president at Boeing. He travels up to 200,000 miles a year, and as a result...

STATION: Routinely, I wouldn't know my kids' teachers' names. You know, my wife would tell me, obviously. And if I had time, maybe I'd meet them, you know, once or twice a year.

HSU: This year, he hasn't taken any work trips since February. He's still working, but he's home a lot. Now he sees the teachers on a daily basis - on a screen, of course - and he sees them connecting with his kids.

STATION: I got to see my kids and see their world in a way that I've never experienced before.

HSU: It's overwhelming, he says, thinking about how much he's missed and how much this hard year has brought him. The pandemic is taking fathers on journeys they may never have chosen otherwise. For Nathan Bieck, losing his job has meant gaining time with his 9-year-old, Maddie.

NATHAN BIECK: I am teacher Dad. I get up every morning, and I wake her up, get her breakfast ready. We get her online.

HSU: And then he goes online himself to job search, which at 45, he says, can feel humiliating. Bieck had a great sales job with a big new convention hotel in downtown Kansas City. It was supposed to open in April.

BIECK: We had giant media events planned, people flying in from all over to cut ribbons, to do all this kind of thing.

HSU: Instead, Bieck was furloughed. Meanwhile, his wife was going bonkers at her job. She's in health care and was working 16-hour days dealing with issues around COVID payments and reimbursements. So on the home front, it was...

BIECK: A complete role reversal, from the laundry to the food. I'm a much better cook than I was six months ago.

HSU: And turns out he's a pretty good teacher, too. This year, Maddie's reading and math scores have gone up - way up - a real bright spot in a pretty disastrous year.

BIECK: When you sit at home all day and aren't bringing in a bunch of money for the family and what is your worth and, you know, you question yourself - I was like, this one I can say, hey, maybe this is working.

HSU: Now in the pandemic, more women than men have left the workforce. Take Zachary Austrew's family. His project management job was deemed essential, so his wife quit her job in marketing to care for the kids. Now he's still trying to come to terms with being the sole breadwinner for his family.

ZACHARY AUSTREW: We're not that family where I go to work and she stays home and cleans the house and I expect dinner when I return. That's just - that's not how we operate.

HSU: He actually felt guilty. For a while, he tried working at night, until 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning, so he could be with the kids during the day. His wife still freelance writes when she can. They need the little bit of income. And he's actually had new opportunities come up at work, things he might have gone for in normal times. Instead, he's playing it safe. Now is not the time to rock the boat.

AUSTREW: There are so many other stressors in our life right now. I don't want my career to be one.

HSU: He feels he owes that to his family, especially to his wife.

AUSTREW: She made the decision to put her career on hold for a little bit, and she didn't - we didn't do that lightly. And one day I hope to make it up to her.

HSU: After the pandemic, he says, he'll support her any way he can.

Andrea Hsu, NPR News.

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